ROTTEN BALLERINA FIG / PERFORMANCE
At
@lamachineparis
For
@forensicsparis x
@prncptl
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As a dream girl, I always craved for femininity in all forms and dancing always has been a way for me to explore womanhood. Because of mostly myself, covid and my drvg habit I kinda stopped dancing for a while and lost the technique I used to have younger, but I never lost my sense of expression.
This performance is about the hopeless wish to be a ballerina, it is about a rotting Sylvia Plath’s fig, because it is too late for me to be a professional ballet dancer, but it doesn’t mean I can no longer dance or explore my dreams.
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This performance was a real challenge for me because I couldn’t play my soundtrack, and it was the first time for me performing during a house dj set.
I took the opportunity to demonstrate a very intimate improvised gesture about hope, with headphones, as if I was in my own world, apart from the audience, as if I was in my mind, making the performance for myself.
I wanted the audience to feel super far from me as an artist, I wanted them not to even understand it, but to watch it as outsiders.
I am not a drag queen and I don’t make shows. My art is performative and it’s about taking the risk of failure as a friend, to experiment my own self and my self can’t be estimated or compromised. It’s about how I feel the moment and how I explore it, I haven’t rehearsed, I haven’t fully planned what I was gonna do.
I wanted to trust myself to make a m0rtal performance, something that takes place in time, and has en end, and it is very important for me not to make the same performances multiple times, I believe in uniqueness as a sign of authenticity.
I don’t want to be perfect, I want to be alive.
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Thanks to
@ghostelektra /
@lennycartwright for giving me the opportunity to perform for
@replicantevents
Special thanks to
@leomonira &
@techno_blondy for the amazing support and love they gave me
Thanks to
@vince_diesel__ for the assistance
Thanks to
@lyou.bou for the headphones
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Photographed by
@angegabriellll
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Make up inspired by
@jacemay_
Concept inspired by
@regina_demina
Nausicaa x Black swan