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Ears are deaf but my heart is full lolll 💘 What a crowd, you give me hope Thank you, Vienna!!!! pictures by @sabiswabis backdrop by @annalumaca

ticketlink in bio or at the door see you tonight 🎁

Between rehearsing the liveset, growing a beard and killing my ego. Hbu?

4th december Flucc Vienna it’s gonna be Dramatic who’s coming? 💖💞💘💓

Transitioning is hard. I’m afraid I sometimes made it seem like it wasn’t. Some might roll their eyes because this is yet another trans post. I don’t care. Transitioning is not only amazing and finding yourself, it’s brutal, unforgiving and lonely. I don’t really feel like I fit in anywhere and have to remind myself a lot that who I am is fine and I’m worthy. I often feel misunderstood which makes me frustrated to a degree I thought was impossible. I’m often angry because I have to deal with so many things other people don’t have to waste one thought on. And yes, I sometimes feel sad for the girl I left behind and I’m learning that she is a crucial part of me. I’m mourning the safe spaces I no longer fit in with. I’m mourning relationships that changed because I did. I tried to act as if I’m cis the moment I took T, to not step on anyone’s toes and feel a sense of belonging. That only made me miserable, I’m not cis, I’m a trans man and I’m proud and wouldn’t change a thing.

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“Husbands Cry” would’ve also been a great title tbh

Today marks my fourth year on T :) It feels longer than that I always wanted to be a Jonas Brother I loved the name „Marshall“ cause that was my first guitar amp But I loved the name in a way I couldn’t quite explain and felt forbidden The jealousy when walking by the boys section in H&M The utter panic when shopping for bras the first time with my girlfriends Music always helped me get closer to myself Mavi Phoenix was always an escape And I hope it is for you, too ❣️

Don’t be fooled, your CEO is never on vacay 😔✌️ Shot by @sabiswabis

Feeling free means different things to everyone, for me it’s being able to do what I love as the person that I am. Thank you for accepting me and never making me feel like I don’t belong. And if someone gives you shit for being yourself, tell them I said f*ck off 😎 Thank you @justsmileand.wav for producing and mixing this song💘 And thank you @sabiswabis for doing a spontaneous photo session with me yesterday 💖 Free out nowwww!!